Beta 1st Sem result finally is released~~

28 of October 2009
my beta 1st sem result released
actually result is not too bad
but is not too good oso
and is wat i expected during my final
juz cant expect tat my cgpa is the lowest
compare to the previous sem

i really can accept tat
during the period of preparation for final
i was telling myself tat
i hope pass is enuf adi
coz when i enter the exam hall
i really dunno how to do
and forgot everything abt wat i have studied
tats too bad
haiz

tats y pass all i should be happie
but when i saw my result
i totally sad
totally moody
totally down
haiz
not much ppl will understood wat is my feeling now
by the way
thx for u all advises
appreciate tat
hopefully
i will get well soon

UnHappie~不开心

我不开心了。。。
很不开心。。。
在Beta Year的第一张考试就将垮了。。。
我不明白。。。
为什么会酱害怕。。。
又不是没考过试。。。
可是偏偏为什么。。。
一进到去考场。。。
坐下看了下题目。。。
是有点头绪的。。。
为什么非犹豫不可呢。。。
在犹豫的同时。。。
也让我脑袋突然一片空白了。。。
越想越紧张。。。
越紧张越忘记。。。
约忘记越怕。。。
越怕越忘更多更紧张。。。

我真的不明白。。。
我不是没读。。。
我不是没背。。。
我还特地为了这科目而去做Notes。。。
可是到头来我得了什么。。。
却是脑袋一片空白。。。
我知道很多人尝试过这种状况。。。
当然我也尝试过。。。
可是这次真的是我有史以来。。。
最怕的一次。。。
有史以来。。。
为考试哭最多次的。。。
我很感谢。。。
鼓励我。。。
支持我。。。
开导我。。。
容忍我的朋友们。。。
很感激你们的劝告。。。
可是有些事真的不是在我控制范围内。。。
我越不去想。。。
那脑袋就。。。
越浮现我当时不会做的情景。。
越浮现不及格的后果。。。
我真的不想!!!!!!
我真的不想我会有在大学补考的事件!!!!!!
我真的不想有不及格!!!!!!
我很怕我爸妈会骂我!!!!!!
我很怕没得借钱读书!!!!!!
我压力突然全部像涌泉一样。。。
迅速涌着来。。。
我喘不过气。。。
我很想放弃!!!!!!!!

别人的爸妈。。。
看到自己儿女在面对压力考试时。。。
都会说慢慢读啦。。。
可是我爸妈就是。。。
一句!!!!
你跟我读好来!!!!!
不读得不要浪费我的钱!!!!!
有时我妈会拿朋友的儿女来说。。。
说到他们有几本事啊。。。
在外国作工啊。。。
一个月赚十多千啊。。。
以后你出到来工作。。。
给几千块钱我用就行了。。。
你明白吗。。。
这是一股很大。。。
很重的压力。。。
我多么希望我爸妈会对我说。。。
慢慢读。。。
读好来。。。
我真的真的很压力!!!!!!!
一联想到我爸妈。。。
买多东西给我时。。。
我更压力!!!!!
因为。。。
不想让他们失望。。。
可是我真的也不想的啊。。。
我脑袋没比人好。。。
没比人聪明。。。
我就是笨啊!!!!!!
没比人厉害可以背很多东西的。。。
我就是不行啊!!!!
我就是没他们酱厉害啊!!!!!!!
我就是很不开心!!!!!
我就是很伤心!!!!!!!!

sorry~

sorry for so late still havent post my abt
mY bIrThdaY's bLog...
feel sorry to my biRthday paRty
feel sorry to my frenz
especially my babies

Promise!!!
Post tat after fINal!!!
Mood now is COMPLICATED!!!!!

My hApPiE sWeEt 19th bIrThdAy

3/9/2009 after 0000

1st of all..

thx for my housemate's greeting msg and present..

2nd..

thx for senior's birthday cake..

although is 1 slice but delicious oso de..

hehehe..

3rd..

i oso not remember who is the third who wish me..

so really thx u all guys for still..

rmb my birthday is on 4 of Sept..

really appreciate it!!

during tat time..

i really very happy to saw tat..

my hp gt a lot of bufday wishes msg..

even in Facebook and Call..

really thx u all guys..

except thx..

still thx..
juz bcoz of u guys..

make me to have a happie happy birthday!!

hahaha..
few of frens ask me tat..

where am i during midnight of 4/9..

i say i'm sitting in front of the laptop and reply..

they say how come..

sholud be hanging outside to have bufday party..

then i say nono..

coz according to my babies's plan..

we will have our party on 4/9 night..

hahaha..

then i was thinking that..

is there birthday party really need to celebrate once reach 12am..

hahaha..

funny..

4/9 before 7pm

i slep at 4am..

but dunno y..

cant slp til afternoon..

y i will slp so 'early'..

coz i keep on reply fren's msg in facebook and phone..

really make me very happy..

and even..
busy..

hahaha..

i have used 4 hours to reply their msg..

although the neck gt a bit tired..

but bcoz of happy so wont feel tired..

hahaha..

then after wake up..

keep on wait for the time pass..

coz cant waiting for the time come..

coz long time din see my baby-vone and steph..

hahaha..
so wish to see them asap..

then i keep on wait and wait and wait..

finally..

reach the time..

4/9/09 after 7pm

finally..
i meet all the babies..

walao...

is very very happie...
firstly..
we have our dinner..
at a place tat we have our memories there..
which is 665..
hahaha..
there de dishes really delicious and cheap..
especially the 'hotplate taufu'..
we really long time din eat 2gthr..
and chat 2gthr..
tat day really happy lo..
but kelian de is..
ah foo..
coz he keep on bully by us..
sorry ya ah foo..
hahahah..

after dinner..
start babies's plan lu..
which is..

go 'PILLOW BAR'..
there full of our memories oso..

coz we have our heart problem talk there b4..
hahaha..
when we reach there..
we find a place tat we have never sit b4..

like this..

in the bar..

actually we chat a lot..
coz long time din see each other..
then for sure..
we got drink beer..
we order 2 buckets..
haha..
all are finish by we all babies..
then after chit chat awhile..
babies and ah hu..
present me their gift to me..
hahaha...
every present and gift is nice for me..
hahaha...
i like tat oh babies and ah hu..
thx thx..
love u all..
muacks...
kiss kiss..
hahaha..

In the pillow bar
we talk and a lot..
and for sure photo oso a lot..
coz many of my babies like to take photo..
even outside the toilet..
hahaha...
bcoz of want give me surprise..
they dun let me out from the toilet after
i have done my 'stuff'..
hahha...
i wondering why they dun1 let me out..
and wat action they will be taken..
during the time for sure is our photo shooting time..
hahhaa..
wat to do..
nth to do..
so juz take out hp..
and snap here snap there..
nice photo..
not bad..
^^

finally they let me out from the toilet area..
i tot the cake is on the table adi..
who knows!!!!
not yet!!!
then i was asking tat..
is time to take out the cake..
they say need wait..
then suddenly..
the waiter is taking out the cake..
walao!!!
so surprise man!!!!
cant even wonder tat the cake wil take out by the waiter..
hahaha...
no wonder they keep on say wait..
call me dun so gan jiong..
hahaha...
i know u all de 'xin yi' lo babies and ah hu..
thx again..

After had the cake..
we decide to go Mcd to eat our favourite..
which is 'tiao tiao'...
hahaha...
french fried!!!!
our favourite!!!
wah...
nice..

delicious!!!
yummy!!!

hahaha...
long time din eat french fried with babies le..
such a nice gather..
after this the night is late adi..
we all oso tired so need to slp..
so we decide to go back have a nice sleep..

SAY TRUELY

VERY HAPPIE TO MEET U ALL IN MMY

AND
I WAS VERY HAPPIE FOR MY TIS BUFDAY PARTY
REALLY WANT TO THX MY BABIES AND AH HU TOO
BCOZ OF U ALL
ONLY I CAN HAVE A SWEET AND MEMORABLE BIRTHDAY
WHAT I FEEL SORRY TO ALL OF U IS
I LATE POST MY BUFDAE BLOG
TIS IS SO SORRY TO U ALL
PLS FORGIVE ME
*PEACE*

*SMILE*
*^^V*
MUACKS!!!
KISS KISS!!!
HUGZ HUGS!!!

Last post on August~Merdeka

Is 31st of August again~~

Merdeka again~~

National Day for M'sia again~~

As usual~~

i won't go out to countdown~~

coz parents not allowed~~

and there is no fren call me out oso~~

coz they know sure i wil reject them~~

haha~~

Actually~~

i'm the person who very like~~

firework~~

tat really damn nice~~

and i really enjoy during tat moment~~

Unfortunately~~

long time din recall tat feeling~~

coz during National Day~~

or New Year~~

then only wil have firework~~

So bad luck for tis year~~

which happening H1N1~~

which is quite dangerous tat can cause death~~

so Gov try to cancel those activity~~

as much as they can~~

Haix~~

SPEECHLESS~~

Now~~

sitting in front of the laptop~~

listening to the korea songs~~

listening to the sound of 'firework'~~

which play by someone who i dunno~~

and far away from my house~~

and post tis blog~~

for celebrate the 52nd~~

National Day of M'sia~~

Happy Merdeka!!!!!

hope M'sia wil getting better~~

and fight with other country!!!

hehehe~~

1 MALAYSIA. PEOPLE FIRST. PERFORMANCE NOW.

^^